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✉ ☏ ☕ CELTY STURLUSON

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//PROFILE: full
- Age (Physical): Early 20's
- Height: 174 cm (5'8.5'')
- Occupation: Vehicle Mechanic, part-time Gourmet Chef, deliverer at Thistle Do Nicely

//INVENTORY:
- initial: her bodysuit, her helmet, her cellphone

//OTHER:
Living Arrangements: Apartment
CYbuddy: N/A

code credit: hoasen

Comments

[hoasen]

[Considering how she's been looking all day, Vietnam wouldn't have matched that with "Better than I expected". Wonder what happened?]

Oh? Really? What was it like? Or what happened, if you wouldn't mind speaking of it.

[Some of the conversation could've been rather personal, so she wouldn't want to be an imposition if it is meant to be secret.]

[helmets]

[ god, where does she even start? maybe with the most important bit: ]

He saw me without my helmet on and it didn't bother him at all.

[hoasen]

[There's silence that follows, only because Vietnam has to repeat it in her head that Sakamoto is not bothered by Celty's lack of head. She knows many others do not have an idea, and think the helmet is a gimmick, but she knows. And she knows how Celty doesn't want to be treated differently because of it.

This...this is actually relieving news.]

What a nice man. He really does honour your company.

[helmets]

[ nodding, right... rIGHT? ]

He really is.

[ but ah: ]

He's also very honest. He vomited on the street when we were walking and admitted to committing murder, embezzlement, fraud, perjury, and a number of other crimes in his lifetime.

[ i mean like this does not take away from the fact that she thinks sakamoto is a nice man, but still. ]

Communication is a good thing in relationships, no?

[hoasen]

[YOU'RE SO SET, GIRL.

...wait a minute.]

He's a criminal? I mean, does he still do all of this?

[LOOK, THERE'S SOMETHING TO ALSO ADDRESS HERE.] I mean, is he safe?

Though for him to be this honest, he must really trust you.

1/2

[helmets]

[ ... you know that's a really good question. ]

He said something along the lines of "as long as you don't do it again, it's fine". This was right before I had taken off my helmet. I assume that he doesn't do any of those things anymore.

[helmets]

[ he must really trust you.

oh. ]

I hope so.

[hoasen]

[She moves her hand to tap her chin. Honestly, as long as he's not doing it anymore, then perhaps it is not as bad as it could be. None of them can admit to being completely honest anyway.]

One can hope. At least you are able to handle him, no? At the very least, his telling you of his previous sins probably means that he won't be doing it anymore, to trust you with such information.

[helmets]

Yes, I think I can handle him.

[ she'll break his knees. (:

but back to the main point. she remembers the way he had told her, with a determined, almost angry expression on his face. she remembers the way he had held her hand when he said it, his grip firm and reassuring. ]

I think he told me in order to make me feel less ashamed, in that he assumed I had done something unforgivable. I think he told me out of a desire to offer comfort and reassurance.

[hoasen]

Then all should be well.

[ROMANTIC--wait.

Deities, to admit to one's sins just to put himself down in order to reassure her. That also takes a confident man.]

Why did he assume that? Though that is still brave of him. Were it anyone else other than you, he might have gotten into trouble.

[helmets]

[ her shoulders slump a little and it takes her a longer time to reply, typing and deleting her messages right after. after a few tries, she finally plays her next response. ]

Throughout the night, he was very sweet. He complimented me a lot and I wasn't sure how to respond to it, I don't think I'm as grand as he believes me to be.

[ she taps out another message, slowly, taking the time to choose her words. ]

I think he may have taken my hesitance as a sign that I was hiding something? That I was feeling ashamed. He was partly right.

[hoasen]

[Well now, if she's stumbling over her words, then this really means something.]

We are all our own worst critics, no? I would know, apparently I'm the worst when it comes to that. His compliments may be something he sees that you can't.

But hmm, your hesitance, is it because you are not human and he is? Is he? That and-- [She gestures at her own face, since not everyone in the flower shop knows.]

[helmets]

Yes. To both of those reasons.

[ maybe it does mean something. she's still a little overwhelmed. ]

But, it's strange. When I was with him, there were instances where I felt like I was human, if that makes sense? I would forget that I am different.

[ and this is the scary part. ]

Sometimes, he makes me feel like I am just a normal woman.

[hoasen]

[Actually, she could understand this perfectly. Only because she's not quite human either, and if there's one thing every country wants to know, it's how nice it is to be 100% human. Sure they have the same habits, but living forever sure makes things different.]

That's rather nice, no? To be able to feel that, it's very comfortable to not worry about anything and just feel like that. He must have a very strong effect.

Curiously, are you attracted to him? Have feelings? [Or just normal company? But then he makes her feel like a woman.]

[helmets]

[ she takes a moment to think about it. ]

I have a lot of feelings, most of them I'm not sure how to identify.

[ he makes her feel a lot and she's still not sure if this is good because they haven't known each other for very long. ]

But, yes. I think I am attracted to him.

[hoasen]

[A sage nod, because since she figured this out all from just entertainment and her siblings, she's not as experienced either. Dammit she sure should've paid more attention to France when she was still living in his household.]

I think these things take time. I keep hearing of how humans keep learning more things about their emotions the more they spend time with the other.

[She then tilts her head in thought.] Though, it looks like you've already identified one, which is an important start. What will you be doing now?

[helmets]

I think so too.

[ and it seems like they're gonna be here for a while anyway, so. she figures it works out, in a way. ]

I've seen it as well. Humans have such vast potential and are capable of learning many things. It's humbling as well to experience their emotions.

[ she had never experienced them before, back when she was still in ireland. it was only after moving to ikebukuro and interacting with humans that she became a little more human herself, felt a little more. ]

I'm not sure, I haven't decided. I'm not entirely sure what I should do either.

[ look, this is a whole new world ok. ]

[hoasen]

Yes, and we'll keep learning too. At least you were able to see how strong they were yesterday? Through his feelings towards you.

[Now if only shew knew that he put himself down. IN THE FUTURE THAT IS. For now, she can only think that he's really interested. More that what the messages implied when they read them.]

Hmm, one does not need to rush into it blindly. You should be sure of what you want to do, as this takes devotion. But if you are interested, then it is commonplace in modern times to be able to start a relationship and take it step by step.

[helmets]

[ start a relationship. does she want that? does he want that? is she even ready for that? ]

I'm not sure if I am ready for a relationship just yet? We haven't known each other for very long.

[ she thinks about it a little more, goes over what happened again. ]

I think it's safe to say that there is a mutual attraction. [ ??? ] But I'm not sure if we both want to progress it to the next step yet.

[hoasen]

[Wise answer, really. Who even knows?!]

I has only just been one date. It's not that era anymore where you have to get married as soon as possible.

But, if you are mutually attracted, then it is a start! You can see how your feelings grow from there. At least you can choose to be a little bold, if you wish. [Not that kind, god.]

[helmets]

[ this is true. they aren't in the 1700s anymore. wouldn't that be a trip, though.

but being bold... hahahahaha.... ]

What do you mean by that?

[hoasen]

[EXACTLY don't fight the times.

Tapping chin now...]

If it is mutual, then it is much easier to show your feelings as you go. Wouldn't it be harder if you didn't know how he felt?

[Uncertainty is the fall of everything.]